"But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience..." Romans 8:25
It's hard to believe that I've been living in New York for a month, and that I only have a month left to spend in this city. It has become a little more familiar each week. I know that by the end of my time here I will be sad to leave.
Week four has certainly been the most touristy week. I saw a Broadway show, wandered around Central Park, watched the sunset over the East River, went to the Plaza, perused 5th Avenue and shopped around the East Village.
New York is really fun. I've said this before, but I can't imagine being bored here. Tired, overwhelmed, restless... but never bored.
Week four was a milestone! A month seems like a decent amount of time to live somewhere, enough time to see the sites and get to know a neighborhood. I really appreciate the city and how everyone here loves to celebrate individuality and creativity. I also feel out of place and in the way- New Yorkers always seem to be rushing somewhere.
After a few weeks of distance, I am beginning to see God's work in my heart during my time in New York. I never wanted to learn more about my own sin, but I'm ultimately glad that it isn't really up to me.
Volunteering has opened my eyes to the giving spirit that exists here, and made the work I am doing seem worthwhile and tangible.
Being alone has created a spirit of restlessness and an eagerness to explore and deepen my faith. I'm grateful for that. There is a lot I do not know and Jesus is helping me learn to accept that.
Missing my community has also taught me about the value of knowing people and being known by them. One of the biggest hurdles to jump has been being honest about how I am doing when I could easily lie and talk about the newest exhibit at the Met.
Looking at the remaining few weeks I have here make me feel like I'm being prepared for even bigger truths. It is scary to be somewhere that I feel so vulnerable and sensitive to change- but I think that is the best catalyst for growth. If you're like me, the Devil can use vulnerability to make you feel weak and without purpose.
But God promises otherwise.
That is one of the best characteristics about God, how big His promises are. God doesn't work around our schedules or ask our permission. He just comes into our lives and tells us about His promises and they are big and wonderful and scary and shape us in ways I never thought I would be.
It is good to be loved by the Lord. It is good to be in New York. And it is good to see those two things working together.
Here's to week five and even more good things!